Wake Up CallPosted: September 23, 2010
I know many of the “healthy living” bloggers eschew the scale for various reasons. I personally own one and use it on a semi-frequent basis. I can go days without ever feeling the urge to step on it, and I’ve learned to listen more to how I feel (and how my clothing fits) than the number on a piece of metal.
That said. I stepped on it last night, and I weigh more than I’ve ever weighed in my entire life. Seeing that number brought back emotions I hadn’t felt since I was deeply entrenched in my eating disorder. I knew my pants were a bit snug, but I had no idea how much I’d gained recently.
I’ve been making excuses right and left. One cookie here, a few slices of pizza there…Just like every little healthy choice adds up, every little unhealthy choice adds up as well.
Healthy choice number one: Nixing the Chinese takeout lunch in favor of a lighter, self-assembled option.
I have a hunch that thin slices of tofu, a Roma tomato, and half of an avocado drizzled in balsamic vinaigrette along with a pile of alfalfa sprouts with salt, pepper, and honey mustard was a better idea than an oily lo mein.
Fabulously light but with enough fat and protein for substance – four hours (and one handful of green grapes) later, I was still nicely satisfied.
Although I have a to-do list eight miles long, I’m squeezing in a short run before dinner. Health absolutely has to be a priority – that’s a non-negotiable, regardless of how much you weigh.
During my eating disorder, I frequently told myself things like “three more pounds and we’ll start eating carbs”; “hit your next target weight and you can eat breakfast and lunch”. These ultimatums stemmed from my inability to accept that I deserved health and happiness here and now, at whatever weight.
Regardless of where you are in your journey with your weight and body image, you must remember: you deserve to treat yourself right here and now. Deprivation is not going to melt away the pounds. Weight-loss shakes aren’t going to shake anything but your sanity. If and when you decide to change your habits to lose weight, remember to do so with a sense of balance and love.